Seeing Dr. Klein, my oncologist. I look cute? Are you kidding? I'LL TAKE IT!

Yesterday was a great day! I visited my oncologist.  I haven't seen her for two months. They flushed my port. Took blood, weighed me, (these are things that I do each time I go) took my blood pressure, and waited to see her in room 1. I was told during my port flushing, "Oh you look so cute".  That made my day since I don't have people tell me that with the "hat-thing" these days.  But she said it. 

When my doctor came in the room, she said, "Oh you look fabulous". I looked at her like, "what"?  I realized that all women feel unattractive during chemo.  They lose their hair and they feel like they have lost beauty, identity, self esteem, and this whole office works to build it back up for you.  Two thumbs up for my doctors office.

She said that I have now been going to her for just over a year, as it was June 4th last year. She smiled, as if she was so happy about it. She asked me the usual questions I get asked each time.  Some of them are funny.  An example:
"Do you eat because you have to or because you are hungry?"
Geeze.......BECAUSE I AM ALWAYS HUNGRY. But I understand why they ask it. I have had times that I just didn't want to eat.  That is why I lost my 30 lbs. Lack of wanting to eat.  But I don't feel that any more! yay! 

She told us from my blood taken that my iron might be low or that I might have bleeding in my stomach.  She poked around my stomach and I didn't feel tender.  There could be a chance I have to have another endoscopy.  Hopefully not.

She said that I am doing great, and look great and how happy it makes her.  I asked her if my cancer could be slow growing.  She said it could be and I could have had it 1-2 years. Maybe not.  It doesn't seem to be growing too fast now, but between all the prayers and such going out in my behalf, and my chemo I take daily, the liver cancer seems to be doing nothing right now. She wants to see me in two months.  Just prior to seeing her, I will take another CT scan and she will tell me the results when I come in.

During our family prayer, I all of a sudden lost it.  I could not talk from the lump in my throat.  I just was overcome with gratefulness that I get to hang out with you all for hopefully a long time to come.  Things are looking good!

Life After Death

This is the book I just talked briefly about in my last post that I just wrote.  This book has changed my thinking about paradise and what happens when we die.  I feel so comforted to know the things that I learned reading this. I totally believe everything he said.  I strongly suggest anyone wanting to know about their loved ones after they die, to read this book. I am not scared of the transition when it happens to me.  It's all about service on the other side.  I just hope I can give service here so I can practice for there when my time comes......which will be a long time down the road is my plan! 

Another year of Nexavar. Get better Vi.

I haven't written for quite awhile.  Not because I am a slacker.  Because, things are pretty much the same this past month.  A lot of palm and foot pain.  I am taking some medication now to help with those nerve endings. I am now taking it three times a day in hopes that it will help.

The company that makes my Nexavar, (my chemo tablets) called us.  Remember when I started a year ago being told I would be taking Nexavar, and how expensive it was.  Between $800-$900 a month!  That is an insult to charge people that to help them live longer. Anyway, we had to talk to the company to see if we could get the amount lowered, and they did.  Lowered it a ton!  Well, our time is expiring and we have to fill out all this paperwork again. They called us three days ago, and they almost tripled what we are paying now, but we are still grateful as it is a far cry from how much it could be.  It is hopefully prolonging my life and blessing me. I would like to believe it is.

I would like to tell my stepmom Vi, how much it means to me when she sends me cards, thoughts, pictures, and special poems in the mail to raise my spirits when I am down.  She has really shown love and kindness to me through my struggles.

Right now, she is in the hospital struggling with her own health.  I want her to know I am now praying for HER on my end.  Wishing for her to have a total recovery and be the Vi that I have known  for all these years. The same loving and kind person that she is. Hang in the Vi.  I truely care for you and want you to get to go home soon.

I want to tell about this wonderful book about a man who dies, and is able to tell about his experience on the other side.  I will try to put my thoughts about it soon.

Love my life. Love my family and neighbors and friends, and especially love my husband, Kim. Thank you to all of you following the path I am traveling.