With all of the pain I have been having in my right side by the tumors, I decided to call and find out when my next CT scan was planned for. I was told it would be the first part of November. I told her how I had been feeling and she said that we ought to do it ASAP. Well, yesterday I had a CT scan. Something unusual happened this time. I have had so many CT's, that it is 'old hat' now for me to go have it. I always have the same lady do it and her and I have gotten to be friends. I just love her. Well, I went in on the bed you lie on and she put the IV in and said she would be back in a couple of minutes. All of a sudden, I wanted my mom. I wanted her there with me. I was just like a little child that wanted their mommy. I didn't want to be alone. And the tears just leaked out of my eyes down my cheeks and into my hair. I don't know what came over me. That hadn't happened before. When she came back in, she saw my tears and asked me if I was ok? I told her yes. She handed me a tissue and commented that she hadn't seen me react like that before. I told her I hadn't. Then I thought to myself, that because I had seen her so many times doing this, that she was my comfort. She was my surrogate mother at my CT scan. (There was no way that I was going to tell her that though). Anyway, my tears streamed down into my hair through the whole scan, and when she came back in, she said that I was going to make her cry. When I talked to Kim about it, he thought that maybe my mom was there was why I felt like that. I don't know if she was or not. It would have been great if she was though.
I will know my results next week when I have my appointment. Geeze, I hate cancer!
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