a little miracle for me

I feel like I just got a golden ticket in my Oompa Loompa bar!!!!

I went to my oncologists office today assuming I was going to hear the same bad news I heard a few days ago and how there was nothing that could be done for me.  I was prepared.  But guess what?  It didn't happen!!!!!!

He said that there was a medication he would like to try me on with minimal side effects.  It isn't FDA approved though.  And he has some friends at Huntsman Cancer Institute that know of studies on different cancers and he wants to see if a study is being done on my cancer, liver.  And between the two things, he says that because I am still strong and not sickly and in pain and have a bad liver, he can try me on these medications.  If I was sick, he would send me home and try to keep me comfortable as possible, end of story. But I haven't gotten sickly yet which is to my benefit.

He said he has worked with a man my age with the same cancer and in the same situation as me and he has been able to help him and it has been a year now.  Wow.  I was stoked!!  He wasn't too concerned when I brought up how fast I felt the tumors were growing.  He showed us how small they were and said if he could keep them that size and not grow any more, I could live a normal lengthy life even with those tumors and lesions.  He was all about being positive and acting like this was not the horrible scenario I thought it was. He said he was going to do his homework and find out what Huntsman had and what drug to use for me and call our insurance.  Wow!!  I then got my port flushed in the chemotherapy room and I went home a much less stressed woman than when I came in.  My life is still having miracles it seems.  This was another miracle I felt.  Thank you to all of you with your prayers for me.  It has been the seeds of my miracles.  I CANT GIVE UP!!!