Letters from my mom...30 years after she passed away.

This is an incredible story! I still can't believe it!

Through all of this cancer stuff, I have really wanted my mom to be near me, and I have wanted to feel her presence some way.  I have felt my dad's presence, but not something extraordinary from mom. There is just something about one's mom that feels so good to have her there when you are feeling down and sick, that I don't think you ever get over. Especially, I know mom knows what I am feeling as I go through all of this cancer stuff, since she died from breast cancer almost 30 years ago from today. I have requested her presence in many prayers.

Last week, out of nowhere, I got a padded envelope in the mail, addressed to me from a cousin of mine whom I haven't seen, nor even knew where she lives for probably 25 years.  As I opened the envelope, out dropped letter after letter in my mother's handwriting that mom had written to her sister while she was going through her cancer.  In fact, the dates of the letters are within 6 months of her death.  One is within 2 weeks.  My cousin does not know that I have cancer, and had no idea how much these letters would mean to me.  She had a whole pile of letters her mother had saved during her life, and these are ones my mother had written her.  My cousin thought I might like them.  LIKE THEM......ARE YOU KIDDING?  I had prayed that my mother was aware of what I was going through, and the timing of these letters coming to me right now was no coincidence! Whatever mom did to my cousin to prompt her to send these to me right now, I may never know, but I intend to find out.

In each of these letters, I felt the letters were meant for me.  She would talk about how she felt from her cancer, and how sick she felt.  She talked about after her mastectomy, how the cancer had spread in other places.  Then I about died when I read, and I quote: "My cancer is progressing and is now in my liver. I am starting to bloat and have tenderness over the liver.  My doctor gives me 4 to 6 months".  Mom died 3 months later. I never knew mom's cancer went into her liver.  And that was my symptom when I first saw my doctor, was the pain of the bloating.

My cousin also had a story that another of my mom's sisters had written about mom.  It was a month before she died.  My aunt flew mom to Portugal where she lived so she could spend some time with her before she passed on.  The letter is an account of mom's last month, and how spoiled she got spending time with my aunt.

Even though these letters were not addressed to me, they were for me.  Right now.  In what I am going through I needed to read in my mothers handwriting, how she felt when she was going through what I am.  This has been a little miracle for me.  I am go grateful to my cousin from some kind of prompting, to send these to me. 

So yes.....I received letters from my mom.  30 years after her death to tell me she loves me and is aware of my struggle.  Thanks mom!  I sure love you and miss you!!